What is Consciousness?

Here’s a great video from Deepak Chopra that attempts to explain the nature of consciousness. Kelley Burry plays this video on the first day of each new BodyTalk course, and I’ve seen it several times now. It’s very dense with information, and every time I watch it, I get a little more out of it. :)

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Learning to fight fires…

Over the past few days I’ve had the chance to think about the word trying, and how trying can have different meanings, depending on your experience and point of view…

Picture a little boy in front of a house that’s burning… It’s his home, and he’s very upset – he knows he has to do something, but he’s alone and doesn’t know what to do. He must do something – he must stop the fire – he knows this. The fire is very scary – the flames are high and threatening. He gets as close as he can and spits on the house, hoping the flames will stop… He pulls out his water pistol and tries that after spitting didn’t work. Still the flames burn fiercely, and he’s afraid. He tries to blow on the flames, but this makes it worse. He closes his eyes, but he can still feel the heat and crackle of the flames. He puts his hands over his ears, turns his back, but it’s not working… He runs away, as fast as he can… Maybe that worked – he’s not sure – so he comes back to check. The house is almost burned to the ground, and he’s very sad.

An adult walks up to him and asks him why he didn’t try to save the house. “I tried” he replied, but the adult seems skeptical – “Why didn’t you use a fire extinguisher or the water hose? Why didn’t you ask for help?”. The little boy cries, and would like to run away in shame, but there’s nowhere to run…

In a relationship, I wonder if men feel like that little boy when faced with strong emotions – either within themselves, or from those around them. How prepared are men in handling strong emotions? We might try - but have we been taught the tools to navigate strong emotions? Or are men instead taught to ignore emotions, cope as best they can, be self-sufficient, givers and providers, problem solvers, and a source of strength? Can we be more? Can we learn those tools – even excel at using them? And are we prepared to deal with a lifetime of buried emotions to do so?

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Taking a Leap — Will the Parachute Work?


I sold off or gave away all the big stuff and put everything else in storage… After a two month trip to Arizona in the Spring, and camping another two months on a horse farm this summer, I finally packed everything up and left Montreal for good — or at least for a good long while. ;-) It wasn’t my first choice, but things with Sophie had been going down-hill for the past two years, and we’d been going around in circles for even longer. There comes a time when you just have to face facts and move on — even then, you try again until even the trying becomes impossible… And so here I am, alone and on the road. Though I guess I’m not quite alone for the moment — I’m back on the farm in Nova Scotia until December 3rd or so, taking a few BodyTalk courses; working on myself as best I can. After that, I’m heading down the US east coast, down to North / South Carolina, and maybe even Florida. Ultimately I should end up in Costa Rica sometime in early January. I’d like to drive down, but the cost of gas — and a few sketchy countries along the way — probably means that I’ll have to store the truck and fly down instead.

The financial aspect is a huge worry, but I’m hoping things will work out…

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When leaving is the only option…

Last year I’d made plans to visit the 2014 Overland Expo in AZ with my girlfriend. When the time came to pack for the trip, there was a possibility we would move to a new apartment as well — so I sold a few things, packed up other stuff in boxes, and when the time came to leave for the ExPo, my girlfriend couldn’t come with me. So it ended up being a solo trip. And although we decided to renew the lease, my girlfriend and I had a falling out — that pre-trip packing turned out to be a good thing after all, and marked the start of a shift in my life. :) The ball is rolling now, and seems to be going somewhere, but i dont know where yet – I’m just along for the ride apparently. ;-) I left Mtl to camp in Nova Scotia for a few weeks – not really by choice, but out of necessity to give my ex-girlfriend some space. It also looks like I’ll be storing my things for the winter and heading down to Nosara, Costa Rica. I’d love to drive it, but there are a few dicey countries along the way. :p

I’m typing this update from my phone, so I’ll end here. If you know of some good camping spots in NB or NS, let me know. And tell me what you think of driving down to Costa Rica, considering the current state of some countries…

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Photos from “2014 QC to AZ to SC”


I left Montreal on May 5th, heading down to New Mexico for the Ghost Divide 2014 meet-up on May 11th. I’d bought a hammock to use on this trip (to use instead of deploying the RTT), which turned out to be an excellent experience, though I didn’t count on the freezing temperatures in NM at higher elevations. I definitely should have bought the winter insulation option for the hammock. :) I also installed a cell/wifi router in the truck, so I could work remotely while traveling, which worked great, except for AZ, NH, and TX, where AT&T cell signal can be a little spotty (or non-existant for days at a time). :)

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